10/01/11

I like to think that I an be poetic. I can at least try right?
I was never one for the writing arts, and i never thought I would ever be interested in anything like that. I love to read. I find that writing comes easier when your free write too.

In are journals for class, I find myself censoring my thoughts. I don't know what im so afraid of. if someone reads it, who cares..

its just free writing. Its not like its gunna fuck up anyones ideals or anything like that.

I find that since i havent been that present with my blog that I'm going to use my journal as a draft. and write up my entries. I suppose that it will help. I find it working a bit. I've written down quite a lot. and its not scribble or just plain text on the page that has no idea what its talking about.

those these entries in my journal are 4 pages. I think that im just going to either sum then up or something. I haven't really decided what im going to do with it yet.

so hopefully these entries get longer. we can always hope aha

~jessy

Writing For the Arts Journal

As of next week I will be posting weekly my journal entries from my Writing for the arts class. I feel that posting these will help me get back into the swing of writing on my blog.

on my Jgallery blog I'll be posting stuff like pictures of my class work and stuff like that, I haven't really been in the mood to paint and I feel that maybe after a little bit, like a month or so I might get back into it again. Right now i'm just doing my painting course work and shit for school and not working on my own personal work. But I hope it will change soon.

~jessy

blah blah blah

The first two weeks of school have past. I would say they went pretty well. The university is a lot different than the college that I went to, in the means that its a lot smaller and navigating it is a real bitch, theres so many turns and stairs that your legs burn by the time you actually get to class. I normally plan to get there about an hour or so early so im not all sweaty and gross. plus I can just sit and read and hang out. Even though I have one studio class, it seems to be taking up most of my time, Im going to need to work on my time management when I have a drawing and a painting class too. So far things are going well in my painting class and I seem to be one of the few that actually knows what there doing.. some of the people in my painting class have never really held a paint brush before, so all this is very new to them.

My apartment is very quiet. Its nice to actually live on my own. but I find it hard to get shit done at my place, since chores are starting to grow from just doing laundry to having to clean my whole apartment and get groceries.

video blog on youtube

so for the past year and a half i've been making Synthetic dread tutorials and what not on youtube and gotten a lot of really nice feedback. So I decided to make a more frequent vlog showing my progress in University. hopefully this works out lol I've been thinking about doing this for the last couple of months and I think it would be a positive experience and interesting to see my progression in school. This could also be useful for people that are considering going into the arts in some way. I just thought that it would be fun to document my next two years in Halifax.

I'll be posting links to these vlogs on my other blog "JGallery" or this one, haven't really decided what I want to do yet

we'll have to see how this goes. Not gunna like i'm really excited for this.

Moved to Halifax

The drive through wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, it was quite pleasant actually. It took us about 24 hours to get to my apartment, and 2 hours to unpack my stuff. My parents stayed with me for a week and now they are on the way home back to Ontario. Its really nice being on my own again. I can think clearly now, and its not hectic here, its nice. Its nice to be by myself this time, no roommates is the way to go for me. Now I can finally get some work done. tomorrow Im going to walk down to the university, and get a handle on where everything is in this city.

Sad day in my studio.

I don't know what it is about me and stress. Its like, when I get stressed out, I can't function at all. I feel physically sick. For the past couple of weeks I've been ill. and that isn't good, how am I suppose to work when i'm sick?

and its not just the big things that stress me out, it's also the little things. It's like just talking to someone will set me off. which is one of the reasons why I've been avoiding some of my friends, I do love them to death, but sometimes I just can't handle it at all.

It doesn't help when I get pushed into things either. like now for instance, I 've just started talking to an old friend again, about 4 months ago and they are constantly complimenting me, and overly complementary people really get on my nerves because I don't know if I should even trust them at all ( I know that when someone complements you its suppose to be flattering, but when its all the time it gets exhausting and I don't like kiss asses ) but for me when someone is overly complimentary it sets me off to the point where I wont even bother asking for an opinion because I already know what your going to say. and something that really stresses me out, is when someone is really overly complimentary and then they act really insecure. it's like they don't trust me at all. and yet your trying to butter me up and make me like you more? wtf. how the fuck does that work? I myself only complement someone when they actually win my interest and its worth commenting on, I don't constantly say shit like "its beautiful" because thats not constructive at all. a comment like that should help you grow and not make you want to shoot yourself in the face.

and because of all that I'm getting overly stressed out. ugh